I’m not very good at letting go when I don’t have to. I’m good with action, and if I’m forced into a situation, I can get through it. But if I don’t have to, it’s hard, and I don’t like it.
My husband got an awesome new job, which means in the next month and a half, I’m moving from Phoenix, Arizona, to Austin, Texas. I’ve been to Austin exactly once now, in a whirlwind house hunting trip that mostly left me with the impression of a lot of green. Before that, I’d never actually been to Austin, but people keep telling me it’s a great place to live. I love the fact that the city slogan is “Keep Austin Weird!” I’m not excited about the humidity.
The move is going to be good for both of us. I’m a firm believer in the idea that life is a series of adventures, and this is a pretty cool one. I have a lot of loss ahead of me. I have to leave my awesomely cool backyard, my friends (though I’ll keep in touch with them), my job, restaurants I eat in and grocery stores I shop in.
When we moved here 7 years ago, we moved fast, and we brought with us a lot of things that we haven’t used since then. I’m ashamed to admit that I haven’t even finished unpacking everything. So, in an effort to be more efficient this time around, I’ve been trying to get rid of a few things. Like the Gamecube I haven’t touched in all that time, or the PS2 that’s been gathering dust. I sold them on eBay, and as I’m packing them up, I’m sad to see them go.
I’m not sure why those things cause me to feel the tug of nostalgia. I obviously didn’t think about them for long periods of time, but somehow they feel more important than they are. A lot of things in life are like that. We have no use for them and don’t want them until we try to let them go. Then suddenly, they become bigger than they are, and we feel as if we want and need them.
I feel better when I let go of the clutter in my life, when I rid myself of things I don’t need anymore. I’m trying to make an effort to do more of it.
What clutter is holding you back in your life?